my boyfriend just sent me this photograph. i am in love with it. and him.

ahem.

i'm just ready for a new last name.

there. i said it.

wait.

i feel like im waiting for something. theres the intense anticipation in my heart, but i cant quite place it.

what am i waiting for?

i guess im just not satisfied with myself. oh to be more talented, more accomplished, financially stable, skinnier, healthier, ________. you get the idea.

so. how do i get there? i dont really know.

today its raining. its been raining for 9 or 10 days. im ready for the sun to come out again.

about that.

i fell asleep in my clothes.

with all my makeup. this is so not like me.

i woke up. i was only asleep a second.

i dont want to move. dont want to budge.

this pillow, the one i dont even use, it smells like you. you mixed with aveda, mixed with you.

i dont want to move.

you make me feel safe and sound. and crazy [in a good way] all of the above.

i'll sleep on this pillow. [the one i dont even use]

what the hell is going on?

ok. sheesh.

everything is new.

i quit school today..

take it back, i withdrew from watkins today.

heartbreaking. but. i feel like its the right thing to do. i have a passion for art and photography. and im stuck and my passion is slowing drifting. i dont want that to go away.

so i've decided to be wise, and get a degree in either business or communications, and dive in to photography on my terms, as much and as often as possible. i will have more time to do this, so im really excited. i dont have any doubts. whatsoever. and i feel really supported by most of the people in my life, i feel super encouraged.

new new new. what the heck is happening? whirlwind, i tell ya.

im so excited/blessed/honored/overwhelmed. love it.

ok hi.

first things first.

there is so much newness going on, i think im going to explode. its nuts. i am incredibly blessed.

i quit starbucks. praise the Lord. i have a week left. i can make it through the drama for a week [i think] i got a job with Aveda, and i am so excited. i believe in the product, and i believe in the company. good things ahead =)

oh. aaaay phone. yep. see ya later verizon and your crappy blackberry. i joined the at&t family.

oh duh. hello boyfriend. i got one of them. and he, he is outstanding. best friends first, that is the way to go. i am terribly fond of him [danny]. we are sickeningly happy. so, that is new.

and im going back to school in a week. bittersweet. summer got better toward the end, but its time to get back in the swing of things.

life has a sweet spirit about it right now. God is faithful, and i am excited for Gods provision and words for the future. <3