wait.

i feel like im waiting for something. theres the intense anticipation in my heart, but i cant quite place it.

what am i waiting for?

i guess im just not satisfied with myself. oh to be more talented, more accomplished, financially stable, skinnier, healthier, ________. you get the idea.

so. how do i get there? i dont really know.

today its raining. its been raining for 9 or 10 days. im ready for the sun to come out again.

about that.

i fell asleep in my clothes.

with all my makeup. this is so not like me.

i woke up. i was only asleep a second.

i dont want to move. dont want to budge.

this pillow, the one i dont even use, it smells like you. you mixed with aveda, mixed with you.

i dont want to move.

you make me feel safe and sound. and crazy [in a good way] all of the above.

i'll sleep on this pillow. [the one i dont even use]