its so hard to wrap my mind around the events as of late, how emotions have been on both ends of the spectrum. i have been so incredibly happy the past few weeks. i have been sad and angry to boot. [i swear sometimes im bipolar, or some nonsense like that, but most likely im just overwhelmed and dealing]
i am engaged to the most amazing man ive ever known. i have so incredibly blessed. honored at that. [place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. it burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. song of solomon 8:6]
i have such wonderful and supportive friends. how i came across them, i will never know. my heart aches so much knowing that some of my best friends are a million miles away, in different states and different countries. if only nashville was your home too.
i am scared. i am incredibly excited. i am sitting in my new home. it is a perfect little apartment with hardwood floors and big windows and even bigger trees outside of them. it is cozy. i am excited for the upcoming year. i am ready to put two thousand and nine behind me.
hardest year of my life.
its funny [and by funny i dont really mean funny at all] how two seconds can change your life forever. how life becomes more real, more destructible, in two seconds. how breathing a last breath is feasible.
how incredibly fortunate i am. how incredibly good God is.
i am ready for two thousand and ten. i am ready for a new chapter and a new story.
ps. coeur de pirate will hold a special place in my heart. i love her and her music and her singing voice and her piano playing skills. oh. and. her hair.
i love you. and you.
