most of you who know me know that i am only slightly panicking. the idea of twenty five is odd to me. not being that age. but feeling like i havent necessarily done everything i wanted to do before the big 2 5, or feeling under accomplished. it sucks. but its more or less all in my head (because i look like im twenty, ha) society has conditioned us to believe that if we arent successful or married or having babies in our mid twenties that we are behind, that we are lacking something..
well. epiphany. hit me. like a ton of bricks.
that is just silly. and i am silly for believing that. its just not true.
life is how we make it. [cliche/ wah wah] its true. its not about time lines and status quo's and expectations that just dont make sense sometimes. i am a firm believer that God has things completely under control, that our plans arent necessarily the best ones, that there will always be surprises. its kind of beautiful if ya think about it. not knowing what the heck is going to happen. scary, yes. unbelievably.
but God is just that good. to hold us and calm our fears and doubts and give us wisdom and guidance.
i am a fan.
so, im back to being super excited about my birthday. seriously. cant wait. its kind of a big deal. <3
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Life is Fun. Essentially what this means to me is, as you were saying, that God is Sovereign and is constantly in control. God knows everything you are, who you will become, and who you will be. "Life is what you make it" it is us that make life really un-fun. Our perceptions of people, negative thoughts, a nurtured idea of a 25 year old, a friend says something that they didn't mean anything by but you decided to take it the wrong way. The way things REALLY should be are lost when we loose our center (Christ), when we loose our focus (Eternity), and when we loose our direction (Holy Spirit). When we come to this epiphany!!! Life turns to peace, love turns to your neighbor and not just to your best friend, and everything turns out to be a lot more fun. So, we take more bike rides by ourselves, we enjoy a cup of tea outside reading a book, we stop by to see the sick friend, we pick up every piece of paper, we open the door for the busy people, and we take time out of our crazy busy life to slow down and go out of our ways to walk on crunchy leaves.
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