torn.

need to stop.

slow down.

pause.

guess who got herself stuck in a whirlwind of chaos and emotion. yep.

i figure, i'm gonna let you down. i'm gonna mess things up. [you, whoever that is. its relative. shit. you might not even exist] i'm not going to make you happy all the time. i'm going to cry. and i'm going to do dumb things. can you look that over though? would you? can you embrace that?

and you. you're gonna fail me. you will. you'll hurt me. and you'll probably be mean once or twice. or ten times. could i love you anyway? yeah. i want to. i know i can. and i'm really good at it. loving.

i have a month left of school for the spring semester. and then it is summer time. and then it is traveling time. pray things work out. i want to see new things. and take photographs. and meet new people. and be alone too.

things im currently into:

tea. every night. sitting on the front porch. bon iver[skinnylove]. old things, like books and dresses. windows down, anywhere and everywhere. this new tattoo i am getting so very soon. watercolor.

i deleted myspace. holla. i win.

goodnight little love.