yeah. about that.

i am more confused than ever.

clarity. seriously. i need it.

because my heart feels like it could explode. thats for real.

what do you do when you feel so big about something, something that is good, but know that theres not a whole lot of hope in it? like, the possibility of it working out isn't even feasible.

i wish it was feasible. i wish it would work. what the hell is my problem?

and then i feel inadequate. like i dont measure up. and im pretty sure i totally put that on myself. but i hate this feeling.

im messy. it happens.

ok. bye.